Tuesday, October 30, 2007

First Blog

Alright - this is my first real attempt at putting the blog site together. I thought that it would be fun to publish my thoughts as well as share pictures of my little family. I'd also love to be able to share scrapbook pages I've done with others.

It has been great being in a bigger house, however the memories of mom being there are still constant at this point. I've even caught myself thinking of conversations we had in different areas of the house. I think that its going to take a while to adjust. I didn't think it would be such a big deal either to attend the same ward that mom had been in. However, when I walked into the Relief Society I was immediately reminded of mom's viewing and I had a difficult time thinking about the lesson being taught because my mind kept wandering back to events of that day. I'm sure having all of these extra hormones raging inside of me isn't helping either, but I'm finding it difficult to just move on.

On a more positive note the baby is officially coming on or before January 22, 2008 in the very wee hours of the morning. I talked to the doctor yesterday at my monthly appointment and after he measured me and felt my stomach to determine the baby's size and position, he told me I should consider having another C-section instead of a VBAC. He gave me several medical reasons: the baby has measured on the big side during the last 4 ultrasounds and the baby is likely going to be around Elisabeth's birth weight when she was born. Having a large baby who will likely not fit through the birth canal combined with a significantly increased risk of rupturing my uterus by going through a difficult vaginal delivery made is so that I scheduled the c-section for January 22nd. I have my one family genes to thank for this predicament. Although a part of me never really actually has a desire to go through labor and having to feel anything more than Braxton Hicks contractions. I am not particularly fond of being pregnant; I am grateful Heavenly Father was smart enough to cloud most women's minds about what sacrifices it takes to produce another human being or else I probably would have only had Elisabeth. I'm glad that I know in 12 weeks this whole ordeal will be over!!! (Then the real trials begin all over!)

Elisabeth is going to be a great big sister. This morning as we got ready to go to daycare, she had to pack her baby in its own car seat and then place a pillow under the baby's head before placing a bright pink blanket over the entire carrier. She got upset at Jake for rushing her to take care of her baby's needs. She then had to lift up the blanket and wanted Jake to tell the baby sorry! I don't think Jake really caught on to what she wanted him to do because he was in a big hurry.

I guess my lunch break is over so I'd better get back to work!